ok so kids its a topic lets face it....that comes up...
laurie is the middle child in her family and the only one without kids
I am the oldest grandchild and I keep getting asked when...
truth is its costly! hell we might as well see if we can register with a sperm bank...i said i would have the kids but they may hard, ovaries are a bit messed thanks to endometrosis and my past with anorexia...but I want to...
mexican sperm donors are also hard to come by...
it sucks because insurance companies dont really help..you have to have been trying for a year her insurance told me...well how can i try if i have no sperm...you want me to drop a good 30g first...well no ma'm you....and i just hung up...
i know laurie wants kids asap...but money wise we can't...and i would like a house first...
i also want two or three one I would like to adopt...
I have wanted to adopt a child with down syndrome for a long time now, why well its long and complicated but because I know we could provide a home that would allow the child to develop and be the best s/he could be. So i looked at sites, thing is most are international and guess what no lesbian adoptions sorry....
I mean i could adopt separate but i will not risk getting attached and 5 years later having our child taken away...plus I want laurie to be a part of everything...
Grrr...
ok sorry just wanted to rant, time to pick the girl up from work anyways...
classes and my internship start in a week...and yes im very nervous!
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Also....my letter to my future wife
I tried to sleep but couldn't instead I was driven to write...
Its a letter to my wonderful FW....
You may read if you wish, just wanted to post =)
Just please don't steal these are my thoughts....
Dear my love,
It has been just about eight months since you have asked me to be yours. To embark on a life long journey. Eight wonderful months, and I can not wait to say I do in just about nine months. I just wanted to take a moment as I watch you lay so peacefully and perfect, to say thank you. Thank you for being my sounding board when I need to get out ideas or thoughts, thank you for being the bulldozer that knocked all of my walls down and thank you for standing guard to make sure this heart here doesn’t get hurt. Thank you for telling me you are proud of me, and for supporting me. I want you to know that I could thank you for years to come and I will never run of reasons. I can only hope to show you how grateful and loved I am.
I also want you to know how beautiful you are, physically yes….that goes just by looking at you with those beautiful and intoxicating eyes, those amazing lips so many envy, your soft sweet skin, your forever desirable curves and those oh so perfect curls that leaves in lingo of a sweet innocent angel to a dark sinning exhilarating woman. You are forever in lingo with these two worlds and you forever keep me paying attention, wanting, needing and craving all of you.
Yet this is only one layer of beauty, there is also how beautiful you are inside.
You are so selfless, so kind and caring putting others in front of yourself in a positive way. The way you care for me, the way you care for our darlings Rocket and Star which is partly because I think you know how much they mean to me. You are so smart, and creative. You were given the gift of art with the spark of any drawing or writing instrument you then almost with no effort create a masterpiece, and still think it is nothing special. To me it is a beautiful work of art from my favorite artist. I would frame that and cherish it.
You are one who can make the saddest person smile, the angriest person laugh it off, I know this because you have with me but so many others also. You have taught me how to breath, how to live, and you help me to take credit and see that I am a worthy person who can go great places. I had my life planned to the second and then with a click there you were, something so very unplanned, so very unexpected but still so thrilling and captivating.
I could sit with you for hours and say nothing and be happy just to be in your presence. I could talk and argue with you for hours because I love to hear your point of view, your stories and your inner most private stories and details, no matter what I would not judge you or think of you any less.
You are my puzzle piece, see life is a big puzzle I feel, you go on and find some pieces and put them together. Well in my plan where I had it down to the second I was always missing a piece. I figured that was my fate, but oh no life had something much more special in store for me, and I don’t even know I deserve it, why I was the lucky one, because like I say so many times that missing piece was you. Then everything not only fit but became more colorful, full of shared dreams and values, a home filled with love and laughter, with smells of baking cupcakes and mexian food that somehow went perfectly together. A home that really only had love, and with love came so much more.
You awaken me and yet still I can only sleep to the sound of your heartbeat.
I can have the worst day, and still seeing your smile and those big ol’ brown eyes, and then just breathing you in makes everything else just melt away.
I guess I am rambling which well hey you should be used to, but I have so many points I want to make and well this time no list. So this can be one letter with some points, I will have the rest of my life to write more letters with more points.
For now just know that I adore you, and that I am so grateful for everything you do for me and our little family. At the end of the day I still just want to turn up the music close the doors, dance ever so slowly with you so that I can breath you in, feel your touch, hear your softest whisper, see into your soul, and taste your ever so sweet taste. Why? Well because to me that smell, that touch, that sound, that sight and that taste is what home is to me…You are home to me my love, and my heart is always open for you.
I love you beautiful girl, and remember this is only one letter to explain a few points, expect many many many more because you are worth it, and I cherish you…always.
Its a letter to my wonderful FW....
You may read if you wish, just wanted to post =)
Just please don't steal these are my thoughts....
Dear my love,
It has been just about eight months since you have asked me to be yours. To embark on a life long journey. Eight wonderful months, and I can not wait to say I do in just about nine months. I just wanted to take a moment as I watch you lay so peacefully and perfect, to say thank you. Thank you for being my sounding board when I need to get out ideas or thoughts, thank you for being the bulldozer that knocked all of my walls down and thank you for standing guard to make sure this heart here doesn’t get hurt. Thank you for telling me you are proud of me, and for supporting me. I want you to know that I could thank you for years to come and I will never run of reasons. I can only hope to show you how grateful and loved I am.
I also want you to know how beautiful you are, physically yes….that goes just by looking at you with those beautiful and intoxicating eyes, those amazing lips so many envy, your soft sweet skin, your forever desirable curves and those oh so perfect curls that leaves in lingo of a sweet innocent angel to a dark sinning exhilarating woman. You are forever in lingo with these two worlds and you forever keep me paying attention, wanting, needing and craving all of you.
Yet this is only one layer of beauty, there is also how beautiful you are inside.
You are so selfless, so kind and caring putting others in front of yourself in a positive way. The way you care for me, the way you care for our darlings Rocket and Star which is partly because I think you know how much they mean to me. You are so smart, and creative. You were given the gift of art with the spark of any drawing or writing instrument you then almost with no effort create a masterpiece, and still think it is nothing special. To me it is a beautiful work of art from my favorite artist. I would frame that and cherish it.
You are one who can make the saddest person smile, the angriest person laugh it off, I know this because you have with me but so many others also. You have taught me how to breath, how to live, and you help me to take credit and see that I am a worthy person who can go great places. I had my life planned to the second and then with a click there you were, something so very unplanned, so very unexpected but still so thrilling and captivating.
I could sit with you for hours and say nothing and be happy just to be in your presence. I could talk and argue with you for hours because I love to hear your point of view, your stories and your inner most private stories and details, no matter what I would not judge you or think of you any less.
You are my puzzle piece, see life is a big puzzle I feel, you go on and find some pieces and put them together. Well in my plan where I had it down to the second I was always missing a piece. I figured that was my fate, but oh no life had something much more special in store for me, and I don’t even know I deserve it, why I was the lucky one, because like I say so many times that missing piece was you. Then everything not only fit but became more colorful, full of shared dreams and values, a home filled with love and laughter, with smells of baking cupcakes and mexian food that somehow went perfectly together. A home that really only had love, and with love came so much more.
You awaken me and yet still I can only sleep to the sound of your heartbeat.
I can have the worst day, and still seeing your smile and those big ol’ brown eyes, and then just breathing you in makes everything else just melt away.
I guess I am rambling which well hey you should be used to, but I have so many points I want to make and well this time no list. So this can be one letter with some points, I will have the rest of my life to write more letters with more points.
For now just know that I adore you, and that I am so grateful for everything you do for me and our little family. At the end of the day I still just want to turn up the music close the doors, dance ever so slowly with you so that I can breath you in, feel your touch, hear your softest whisper, see into your soul, and taste your ever so sweet taste. Why? Well because to me that smell, that touch, that sound, that sight and that taste is what home is to me…You are home to me my love, and my heart is always open for you.
I love you beautiful girl, and remember this is only one letter to explain a few points, expect many many many more because you are worth it, and I cherish you…always.
I have forgotten to update, heres some more from my offbeat!
Ms. Laurie's birthday was August 12th...good ol' 27!
so for one of her many gifts she got some ink so here it is
Happy (and beautiful) Laurie
Arm 1
Arm 2
I also took a cartoon and made some adjustments, what do you think?
Now....its time for this
buenos noches
so for one of her many gifts she got some ink so here it is
Happy (and beautiful) Laurie
Arm 1
Arm 2
I also took a cartoon and made some adjustments, what do you think?
Now....its time for this
buenos noches
new addition to our family...as well as a new role in our wedding!
so ms. laurie has always wanted a black kitten, shes the cat person I am the dog person...
I have been looking for a sister for Rocket our dog, and then laurie called with news
'my friend from work has a barn, and the cat had kittens,...and they are all black'
so 6 weeks later one is in our home....
Me nervous, her beyond excited....well this little one has grown on me, as you can tell....on our family...
Also shes been given the role as Lauries ringbearer!
So the day before I got Rocket a treat to help her if she became to nervous this is what she got
The only thing was she also got this
Rocket became interested but nervous, it was cute she would get close but anytime the kitten made eye contact it was to much and she'd look away and come and sit in my lap then look back over at the kitten...
Then....
Rocket realized this is no lion, its just Star my baby sister!!!!
So when Star would run and explore
Rocket was not far behind, keeping an eye out....
Now its been hmmm five days and well ms. Star has made her way into our hearts and as a member of the family
With Mumma Laurie
And Mommy Eryn
Sibling picture soon to come!
I have been looking for a sister for Rocket our dog, and then laurie called with news
'my friend from work has a barn, and the cat had kittens,...and they are all black'
so 6 weeks later one is in our home....
Me nervous, her beyond excited....well this little one has grown on me, as you can tell....on our family...
Also shes been given the role as Lauries ringbearer!
So the day before I got Rocket a treat to help her if she became to nervous this is what she got
The only thing was she also got this
Rocket became interested but nervous, it was cute she would get close but anytime the kitten made eye contact it was to much and she'd look away and come and sit in my lap then look back over at the kitten...
Then....
Rocket realized this is no lion, its just Star my baby sister!!!!
So when Star would run and explore
Rocket was not far behind, keeping an eye out....
Now its been hmmm five days and well ms. Star has made her way into our hearts and as a member of the family
With Mumma Laurie
And Mommy Eryn
Sibling picture soon to come!
centerpieces...
so craigslist gave me a gift....this guy was selling his daugters ikea centerpieces from her summer wedding....and at 140 for 16 i scored big...i checked out ikea just yesterday and i saved well over 50%! hu-ray!
so lets see em!
what do you guys think
we will be using led lights so the candles wont blow out
and on the bottom flower petals or just some stems of flowers.
the flower idea to go with is:
petals
gerbas:
or this flower:
so lets see em!
what do you guys think
we will be using led lights so the candles wont blow out
and on the bottom flower petals or just some stems of flowers.
the flower idea to go with is:
petals
gerbas:
or this flower:
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